Lucy?" I raise my head in alarm. "Lucy!" I turn to the familiar voice. "There you are!" I feel warm arms engulf me, pulling me, soothing me.646Please respect copyright.PENANApLUfTjzchk
"Ray…" I choke out. Ray releases me and looks at my tear-stained face. He takes my hand and slips the blade from between my fingers, his eyes never leaving mine.646Please respect copyright.PENANAKTU6PrU3hh
"Lucy," his voice is broken. "Please tell me you didn't."646Please respect copyright.PENANAtcMNB3WiqE
"I-I didn't." I take a deep, shaky breath. "But I almost did." He turns his head and shuts his eyes.646Please respect copyright.PENANAHY6D3k0Hqd
"Promise me something, Lucy." He looks back at me. "Promise me that you'll never cut again, OK?" I nod. "If you ever fall back to this place again, call me over. I'll help you, Lucy." He grabs my hands. "Promise me."646Please respect copyright.PENANACOhTgL3z0M
"I promise, Ray." I whisper, tears leaking out of my eyes. He pulls me into a tight hug, breathing out a sigh of relief. He kisses the top of my head and then moves back…646Please respect copyright.PENANA4DklVbN8Sy
646Please respect copyright.PENANAXiN7poPWyp
I open my eyes and stare at my wall, but it's not there.646Please respect copyright.PENANAp6qV5tlkFn
My blanket is hanging off my bed, my clothes are strewn across the floor, my hair is sticking to my wet cheeks and the window is shut, enclosing me in darkness.646Please respect copyright.PENANA6HytEUB0bA
I feel nothing but pain and agony. A dark cloud is filling my head, making me seem heavy.646Please respect copyright.PENANAFQLeJGkULw
Fake.646Please respect copyright.PENANAfk2NAb0FwI
Not myself.646Please respect copyright.PENANANmALl3b0Zo
The silver blade is shining, piercing the darkness with an evil light. It taunts me, challenges me, dares me to touch it, to pick it up and to use it.646Please respect copyright.PENANARs8mZ56KXi
Oh, Ray. Where are you?!646Please respect copyright.PENANAaAA3SPqsSH
"I'm going somewhere with my parents and we won't be back until Friday. Call me if you need anything, OK?"646Please respect copyright.PENANA5UZnXnx6xi
Help me, Ray! Help me!646Please respect copyright.PENANAXnFNQNwOQ8
I punch in his number and put the phone to my ear.646Please respect copyright.PENANAvnsHOYEjF4
Voice mail.646Please respect copyright.PENANAxF4Y6VbBCt
I try again.646Please respect copyright.PENANAkm8AY4wegw
No answer.646Please respect copyright.PENANANCdB7S6BTF
I frantically pull at my hair, curling into a ball. I shut my eyes but a few lone tears escape. I shake my head, trying to pull myself out of my despair and trying, somehow, to pull myself together. I'm falling apart, breaking down.646Please respect copyright.PENANAioalMzQPZp
I can't. I must stay strong.646Please respect copyright.PENANAWFi9sb0I3H
My tears come faster.646Please respect copyright.PENANAeixZXgYfdV
Keep it together, Lucy. Keep it together.646Please respect copyright.PENANAsdoe54xxCm
"Ahh!" I scream, pushing myself back. I lose my balance and fall off my bed, crashing to the floor. I cover my face with my hands, shaking, sobbing.646Please respect copyright.PENANA1DyZBJamfz
"Ray!" I cry out. Please…646Please respect copyright.PENANAyPJueXEgVf
My hands fall to my sides, my hair a knotted mess. I stare silently at the ceiling.646Please respect copyright.PENANALF0AnYPBtM
Is it really that high?646Please respect copyright.PENANALxeuPwsJji
I curl up on my side, staring into the black nothingness under my bed.646Please respect copyright.PENANAUOqEoqcWV3
I must move… I need to move.646Please respect copyright.PENANAdswIZFYEFx
I eye the door.646Please respect copyright.PENANAveNpDtvktJ
I will myself to sit up.646Please respect copyright.PENANASTHB66Qt7c
My room turns upside down and goes blurry, my vision faltering. I still and wait for the dizziness to pass.646Please respect copyright.PENANAD6WMTyoFFu
I blink once – twice- and then sit on my knees.646Please respect copyright.PENANAgn8tpyJI86
I focus on the door.646Please respect copyright.PENANAgrlMbAs7nP
I crawl forward.646Please respect copyright.PENANAmHmVxhoYVF
I need to get there.646Please respect copyright.PENANA5XR83xlPoT
I slowly try to stand up. I advance, pushing one leg forward and then the other, and repeat.646Please respect copyright.PENANA4I2N2QxPj6
My legs are wobbly, broken.646Please respect copyright.PENANA5IHKhzm14d
Just a few more feet…646Please respect copyright.PENANAkaGQ2CVAiF
I reach out my hand and take another step-646Please respect copyright.PENANAFFXmbW8uOd
and collapse to the ground.646Please respect copyright.PENANAbjbJig402r
"No…" I try to stand again, but I can't get up.646Please respect copyright.PENANAGuKDuC9pvm
I grab at my bed sheet, trying to pull myself up. I feel around, grabbing at anything I possibly can. I grasp closer to my blanket and freeze as I touch something cold. Sharp.646Please respect copyright.PENANARHPoz8tHIT
I suck in a breath.646Please respect copyright.PENANAvbPcLVw8zZ
A chill of excitement and fear shoots up my arm, down my spine and spreads through my body.646Please respect copyright.PENANAyfjjIZ5Nud
I bring the blade closer to me, another thrill flowing inside me.646Please respect copyright.PENANA1P0wOKnaXG
Just once.646Please respect copyright.PENANAPrUS5T46Vb
"Promise me."646Please respect copyright.PENANAT3F7Uai3DY
"I promise, Ray."646Please respect copyright.PENANAB3xBHt3Z8N
No, I can't. I promised him.646Please respect copyright.PENANAy4uYOtzYKI
But it'll feel so good…646Please respect copyright.PENANAIywIaPLq1y
I study the blade, turning it around in my hands.646Please respect copyright.PENANABYLWSdoLnb
It'll be quick. Just one cut.646Please respect copyright.PENANAB5QJEOQedN
It'll heal quickly, faster than normally.646Please respect copyright.PENANAS0kAwCStLd
Now's your chance, Ray… I look at the door, waiting for him to walk through and stop me.646Please respect copyright.PENANAFx0Pd10uJ3
Anytime, now…646Please respect copyright.PENANAekBFWT8nvU
My vision blurs. I feel drops on my skin.646Please respect copyright.PENANA3NorLR4htO
Is it raining?646Please respect copyright.PENANAcMq4fkkY9S
No, that’s impossible.646Please respect copyright.PENANAztKXOhHEGS
I can't see.646Please respect copyright.PENANATlz1L5H39w
I try to take breath but I choke up, a heavy weight sitting on my chest. A rock is stuck in my throat.646Please respect copyright.PENANApLzb0WN78V
I can't breathe.646Please respect copyright.PENANAkhqve6RBZa
I thrash around, clawing at my throat. I make a gurgling sound, trying to swallow.646Please respect copyright.PENANAC129aJEqbi
What's poking my leg…?646Please respect copyright.PENANAohtLBeEwn4
I look down, choking on air, and spot the blade.646Please respect copyright.PENANAS2I0FFu3FL
How did it get there?646Please respect copyright.PENANAFujX5lP5T7
I take it and hold it closely to myself.646Please respect copyright.PENANAqDuk26L0XX
How can something so evil look so beautiful?646Please respect copyright.PENANAspYIEkFyC1
I bring it down to my wrist and shiver.646Please respect copyright.PENANA4Ql03QS81K
So cold.646Please respect copyright.PENANAW7AdOmQY7v
I press down and drive it across my skin.646Please respect copyright.PENANA2hhqp3ct2W
I let out a shaky breath that I didn't know I was holding. My blood drips warm and red down my arm.646Please respect copyright.PENANAzwaTgglI3I
I take another breath.646Please respect copyright.PENANAsxPP4SSv2u
Another.646Please respect copyright.PENANAVNsUULCfnt
My breathing comes harder, faster.646Please respect copyright.PENANAq414Q2Mwom
I slide the blade and cut again, slicing more of my skin. I gasp, my arm stinging. A groan escapes my lips as the pain takes its place, the sick pleasure mixing in.646Please respect copyright.PENANAD661v3XAr9
I lean back, resting my head against my bed.646Please respect copyright.PENANAdexXjV1HLT
I shut my eyes tightly.646Please respect copyright.PENANAgqx7JiKtkf
I should not have done that.
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