晚上,尚母回到家時,看見坐在客廳沙發上的女兒。她先是一愣,隨後皺眉,最後緩和了表情。尚母坐在尚妤婕對面的位置,正準備開口說些什麼,卻被對方打斷──107Please respect copyright.PENANAg5KsbdQZv6
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「以後,我會去妳希望我去的大學,唸妳希望我唸的科系,去妳希望我去的公司,在妳希望我工作的崗位工作……」107Please respect copyright.PENANAMvbqtYqkAR
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「我會聽您的話,放棄音樂,不再做任何您不希望我做的事情。」107Please respect copyright.PENANANoPCICy15v
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「所以,請原諒我這些年的叛逆行為……母親。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAenlSMlFwPm
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尚妤婕全程低垂著頭,看不到尚母的表情。她的聲音低沉而沙啞,不含一絲熱情與希望,每字每句都像是在抽乾肺部的空氣,擠壓她的心臟,痛徹心扉。107Please respect copyright.PENANAg6BOliNOcz
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她沒注意到的是,當『母親』的稱謂出來的那刻,尚母的呼吸變化了一瞬。氣氛陷入冰封的沉默,良久之後,尚母開了口,聲音聽不出喜怒。107Please respect copyright.PENANATDEhWkRbPh
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「好。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAnvnf5bWcuC
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在那之後,兩母女再也沒有任何對話。107Please respect copyright.PENANAmhXaWhjaDZ
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隔天,畢業典禮如期而至。這一天通常會有家屬陪伴畢業生一起參加典禮,可上妤婕是獨自一人到校的。到了學校後,她沒有去畢業會場,而是找了個安靜的角落躲著。107Please respect copyright.PENANArfsr0n4wEa
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離畢業典禮開始之前還有一段時間,畢業生必須按班級坐,現在她入場就必定會碰上熟人。為了避免遇到趙奕菱等人,她只能壓秒進場,到時典禮上不允許閒聊又無法更換位子,就不需要與他們交談了。107Please respect copyright.PENANAMB7gtfalNe
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她就像個膽小鬼一樣,縮在那小小的龜殼內,儘管內心備受煎熬,也不願出去面對。107Please respect copyright.PENANA4hB6lnWgdE
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短短兩個小時,彷彿變得像一個世紀那般漫長。在廣播聲響起,播報典禮即將開始的前一刻,尚妤婕才偷偷混入自己的班級中。趙奕菱看見尚妤婕的時候眼睛一亮,但在發現對方那疏離迴避的態度後,臉色變得蒼白。107Please respect copyright.PENANAJPEQ7iyqIw
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典禮正式開始後一連串的致詞,通常優秀生環節會是通常年級第一會上去致詞,可學校因為無法聯絡尚妤婕加上尚母有幫忙回拒,所以這次是年級第二負責致詞。典禮結束的那一刻,尚妤婕就急匆匆地拔開腳步就跑。107Please respect copyright.PENANAtJckYo0AFE
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「小婕!」107Please respect copyright.PENANARk4EnV0Miw
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後方傳來熟悉的呼喚聲,尚妤婕腳步一滯,隨後立刻加快腳上的速度繼續奔跑,不願意面對苦苦追著她跑的趙奕菱。107Please respect copyright.PENANAlcz0heeE5P
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單論速度,趙奕菱的腳速肯定比尚妤婕快,可此刻他們在畢業會場中,所有高三生與他們的家屬都在,人擠人的情況下無法放開腳步奔跑。107Please respect copyright.PENANA2tQUoXySBU
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尚妤婕擅長鑽縫隙。在這種狹窄的地方,趙奕菱根本追不上她。兩者之間的距離越來越大,趙奕菱急得不行,呼喚她的聲音也一聲比一聲大。會場內吵雜喧鬧,時不時也會夾雜著其他人的大叫聲,也沒人注意到她們兩人的異常。107Please respect copyright.PENANA8TTer0mODf
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「小婕!小婕……姐姐!」107Please respect copyright.PENANAK2JAdPyi4W
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一聲姐姐,尚妤婕身體一僵,小跑的腳步也停了下來。『婕』與『姐』發音相近,加上尚妤婕的比趙奕菱大幾個月,趙奕菱以前曾經以玩鬧的心態叫過她『姐姐』。但因為尚妤婕不願意又害羞,就沒繼續叫了。107Please respect copyright.PENANA1jWHF13ahL
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趙奕菱突然這一叫讓尚妤婕陷入回憶中而停下腳步,也成功讓趙奕菱追上了她。107Please respect copyright.PENANAWn7RsxSHU2
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「小婕──」107Please respect copyright.PENANATs47llc6zS
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「別過來!」107Please respect copyright.PENANA3Yhl90Uvk7
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趙奕菱即將碰上的手僵在半空中,雙眸中滿是受傷。尚妤婕身體輕顫,咬緊下唇,轉過身不敢看她。107Please respect copyright.PENANA1LkFy587mm
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「小婕。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAaJImFdR8eq
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趙奕菱語句中的受傷與痛苦透過聲音傳遞了過來,尚妤婕呼吸粗重了些,緊咬著下唇,透過嘴唇的痛苦壓抑心中的苦澀。片刻之後,她鬆開嘴唇,盡量讓自己的聲音聽起來輕鬆自在,殊不知她臉上的笑容其實比哭還難看。107Please respect copyright.PENANAz8eiC96Ueu
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「我要去梅國上大學了。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAIsRY9S2Ejt
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尚妤婕不敢回頭看趙奕菱的表情。她想,對方一定在用無法置信的目光看著自己吧?說好要一起努力一起追夢,可都還沒邁出腳步,她就先退縮了。107Please respect copyright.PENANAzXNnCMS3FQ
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「所以,我不去照日大學了。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAoUFBxBdmHS
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她不是不想努力,只是嘗試了,迎來了毀滅性的打擊。她就是這麼懦弱又膽小的人,沒有勇氣去面對挫折。光是那天與尚母的對峙,就讓她累積了多年的信念,變得支離破碎,再起不能。107Please respect copyright.PENANAuYNDS9EHAk
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「組團就不用預我的份了。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAVmYnPeqWVm
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她已經選擇放棄音樂了。放棄了,也不想再面對所有牽扯的一切。而這所謂的一切中,當然也包含了帶領她走進音樂中的,趙奕菱本人。107Please respect copyright.PENANAdLtn0EZ3zO
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「你們五個好好加油吧。」107Please respect copyright.PENANAjRtOcHInjk
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在沒有她這個半途而廢的人的情況下,代替她,好好走上音樂之路,完成這份夢想。107Please respect copyright.PENANA61CFCt3c4C
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明明週遭盡是喧鬧歡樂的氛圍,可此刻兩人之間彷彿形成了一個獨立的空間。流淌在這空間之內的,僅有無盡的死寂。107Please respect copyright.PENANAMWwXzUopUL
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等不到身後之人的回應,上妤婕深吸一口氣準備離開時,後方傳來了那個印象中個性堅毅,成天嘻嘻哈哈的好姐妹的聲音。107Please respect copyright.PENANApeyAXWdVqe
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那聲音,帶著濃厚的哽咽。107Please respect copyright.PENANAU8awVHe6hY
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「我……做錯了什麼嗎?」107Please respect copyright.PENANA7ma5iCX3xu
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語句中幾乎快將空氣中的粒子染上顏色的傷悲,促使尚妤婕即將離開的步伐再次停下。107Please respect copyright.PENANAdBsDfYnH1d
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在尚妤婕的印象中,她從來沒看過趙奕菱哭。大大咧咧又粗神經注定她是個忘性大、不記仇的人,她可能會生氣,也可能會難過,但沒多久又變成那沒心沒肺,笑嘻嘻的模樣。107Please respect copyright.PENANACNlGC9mOlj
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可是,現在卻……107Please respect copyright.PENANAYHcfTf9X9x
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垂下頭,尚妤婕不發一語,咬著下唇的力度再度加重。尖銳的牙齒咬破了唇瓣,血液在口腔中瀰漫出一股鐵鏽味。右手緊抓著左手臂,她始終說不出任何話,最後只能奔跑著離開原地。107Please respect copyright.PENANAx8iOP9s4sO
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這次,趙奕菱沒有再開口。只是離開前,她似乎聽見後方傳來了細微的啜泣聲。107Please respect copyright.PENANAYpBYPO7i2u
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內心一陣絞痛,尚妤婕幾乎要停下腳步轉過身跑回去道歉,可她不能。如果現在停下,她就無法再有勇氣放棄這一切。107Please respect copyright.PENANAVxIWeoeml1
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──沒事的,趙奕菱這麼堅強,她一定能夠挺過來的。即便沒有自己,身邊還有其他人在,一定沒問題的。107Please respect copyright.PENANARZ0O8telIq
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在近乎欺騙式的自我安慰中,尚妤婕咬緊牙關,帶著滿心的苦澀與不捨離開了會場,離開了這所學校,離開了所有她曾經熟悉的一切。107Please respect copyright.PENANA9saTxAHdoj
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曾經最熟悉彼此的好姐妹,最終走向了陌路──
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ISSUE #19
第一個故事-她的音樂夢(十七)
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