I was in Walmart trying to to figure out which medicine to get while my son screamed his head off. Days like this made me hate Kyler. I felt like nothing I was doing lately was right.
"It's okay mommas baby." I said in the verge of tears.
"Khemi?" I heard from behind me. I turned around and there was Nut. I tried to smooth my hair out but I know I looked a mess. I had on baggy clothes and mix matched shoes that I don't even know how that happened but here we were.
"Uh hey Nut." I said trying to fix my face. When my son saw him he screamed louder reaching for him. But asked if he could pick him up and I nodded.
"What's up big man. What you crying for huh." He said softly and my son smiled at him.
"He's sick I'm trying to get him medicine. I'm not a bad mom." I said.
"Here this one is the best one." He said opening it. I gave my son some of the medicine when a Walmart worker came and said we had to pay for it first. Why that lady came and said some shit to Nut because the way he turned around I knew she was in trouble.
"Bitch does it look like she is gonna steal the shit? His ass been crying so she trying to make him feel better.. find something safe to do before you can't go home to you're family hoe." He snapped softly at her. I went to grab my son but his traitor ass cuddled into Nut. Nut ass smiled and said he had him. Nut ass even out him in the car and by that time nut was in my backseat while I drove home.
I was kinda isolated since my husband decided to divorce me. I can't even tell you the last time I slept let alone the last time I felt something other then heart ache. Loving somebody just to be told that they didn't love for real hurt something bad as fuck. I loved Kyler and for him to bring up adoption and kids just turn around and say he never wanted my son fucked my head up.here I was 25 and heart broken. I felt like I was doing everything wrong and not only was I doing everything wrong but needed help. Shit at times it felt like my son knew I wasn't his real mom. We got home and Nut had my baby out already and walked up to the door. I followed behind him and he put my sleeping baby in his crib.
"When's the last time you slept or ate anything?" He asked not looking at me.
"I don't know." I said.
"Babies feed off energy when the mother isn't doing well they can feel that love." He said.
"You must be a great dad. You do so well with him, I feel like everything I do is wrong." I said.
."I'm not a dad my mom was a foster parent till the day she died. She made me help so I wouldn't be one of them dads that didn't know how to help when I had a kid." He shrugged.
"She sounds like an angel. My mom's was great but loving or mother like were not it. She didn't even let me call her mom. Said she was to fine to look like she had four kids." I laughed thinking of my mom. My mom was amazing she just wasn't like other moms. She was my best friend till the day she died and at times I felt like I was failing.
"I don't do this shit but if you like I can stay so you can get some rest." He said with his hands in his pockets.
"Uh no I got he's sleep now so I can sleep." I said. He put his phone in my hand and told me to give him my number.
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