What is a letter/note you've always wanted to give to a loved one but never had the courage to? - “A Love That Was Never Mine to Keep”

There’s something I’ve carried for years.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoGV6QbIr1
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.

We were best friends.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhH1BUDSEVz
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCRQcTCXf9x
And I held them all like tiny treasures.

But somewhere along the way…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡan0itsue6v
I fell in love with you.

Not in a loud, dramatic way.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdP2DrCwA9n
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP65D28Uawu
I just… loved you.

In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3V8kihe7Fv
In the spaces between your words.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS9GMqPDh2m
In the silence after your voice.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwQq9IZ03wU
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.

I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE41gZRrIUD
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNJCxvAsQM7
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMzr9ChAFu
I lost a little piece of myself.

Because I wasn’t just your friend.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcepdJYUwb
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJ0DK1TG5g
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tVR8BpSdu
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.

But Zuni, it did.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00iLiBZGoG
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.

The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79Q60tFB9q
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpB89DH4ZOy
Your laughter that came after anger.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTvIkGdWsR
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSXqbyqyGJ
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.

I remember the night I sent you that video…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAcHbQ5mWk
That baby crying, and the words:79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXy7dWDxnq5
“No one ever says they miss me…”

And you replied —79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICePnHoa7W
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”

Zuni…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2RUWROpC9
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBljSa3I3T7
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9OaoqnjwT
And it still wasn’t what I needed.

The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0kB8npTke
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIQ24KzUKWr
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVIt1RXJW3G
But never the one thing I wanted to be.

We still talk.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7FPcXt8D4p
Every day.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoqcPHO9oM
Like everything is fine.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRM1rM0Xm4
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.

But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAEikuJ5O1e
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.

And you’ll never know.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq3KFcNwSX6
Because I will never tell you.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXElB7g2tae
Not because I’m afraid —79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXBOHfJ71S
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.

Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwPMSZb3dpX
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.

So I do.

I pray that you are always happy.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrZMGnPIp0
That your heart is always full.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF15kDc0RvT
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3FZmYVYzt
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvmO5UmGEp
You’ll think of me.

Not as the friend who stayed.79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXR93YrRr5B
But as the heart that broke —79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQ2AiQNMw2
And still kept loving.

Always,79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3SIUBO8t71
your friend...................79Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2g75iYe2w
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.

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