What is a letter/note you've always wanted to give to a loved one but never had the courage to? - “A Love That Was Never Mine to Keep”

There’s something I’ve carried for years.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwHzcFB8b0h
Something I never had the courage to say — not even when I sat beside you every single day, not even when your voice was the only comfort I knew.

We were best friends.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUASOPnUBO
You let me in, shared your secrets, laughed with me, cried with me, made memories that stretched across years.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlnaoIwQX7L
And I held them all like tiny treasures.

But somewhere along the way…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYsZlZjPft
I fell in love with you.

Not in a loud, dramatic way.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs7NHZJQOv0
Not in a way that ever asked for anything back.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzIHnuggWf
I just… loved you.

In the quietest, deepest corners of my soul.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhc0Y45B1nN
In the spaces between your words.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmdp0bOGzN
In the silence after your voice.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fmp3WGH0A
In the warmth of every “pagal” you called me.

I listened when you spoke about her — the girl you liked.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyGWOpocwHI
I helped you find the words, plan the replies, understand your feelings.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PoD44N82z
And with each sentence I gave to help you be closer to her…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJ57Go24TA
I lost a little piece of myself.

Because I wasn’t just your friend.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ta32gxG4v
I was the one who stayed up late, not to talk — but to overthink every conversation we had.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzzIHqHBfBM
I was the one who replayed your voice in my mind when everything felt heavy.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1icnUvUD6
I was the one who watched you choose others — and still smiled, like it didn’t hurt.

But Zuni, it did.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO1636T1mYU
It hurt more than you’ll ever know.

The world saw you as the strong one. The admired one.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtB5kyj5hDV
But I saw something softer — something only I got to know.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7qyALoD8D
Your laughter that came after anger.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLbOMsh7aK
The way you forgot things but remembered how to make people feel loved.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4jBk2XvzQK
The way you chose me, again and again, when others wanted your time — and I thought, just maybe, that meant something.

I remember the night I sent you that video…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS2iIHjYLh
That baby crying, and the words:78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlx4vNEQUNC
“No one ever says they miss me…”

And you replied —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Ian6RekLG
“Pagal… you are always missed. Always remembered.”

Zuni…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvasR9w32Z
You didn’t know, but I broke that night.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKOv0JVxmT
Because that was the closest I ever came to hearing what I had waited years to hear.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6JMiIQnBmt
And it still wasn’t what I needed.

The truth is, you never knew what I carried inside.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBd7zV3N8qp
How every word I said was soaked in feelings I buried.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgZ6IQCsPy
How every smile I gave hid the pain of being almost everything to you…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmx78XfVrGs
But never the one thing I wanted to be.

We still talk.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6n8sqdisM0
Every day.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZykY2inZk
Like everything is fine.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMqZ3bT6Ar
Like there’s no storm behind the screen.

But every message I send is a love letter written in disguise.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8W9Pu1eT1
Every reply is me pretending that “friend” was ever enough.

And you’ll never know.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUz6NshI5lq
Because I will never tell you.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6NXzxyzSk
Not because I’m afraid —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHjU1pZTvi
But because I love you too much to ruin the only place I exist in your life.

Maybe Allah never wrote your heart for me.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyrWZXlDiN
Maybe I was just meant to love you from the edge of your world… and pray for you from a distance.

So I do.

I pray that you are always happy.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWS6cTf6J72
That your heart is always full.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYcD1wPAfk
That the person you choose gives you every joy I once dreamed of giving you.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXEvaEmXjwz
And I pray — selfishly, quietly — that if you ever wonder if someone truly loved you without asking for anything…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOZ4Eb7TmD
You’ll think of me.

Not as the friend who stayed.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3KBVmbptg
But as the heart that broke —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWbM50dtcs
And still kept loving.

Always,78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHgMudkyAW
your friend...................78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX0JjbcYCdk
—The girl who never told you. But always meant it.

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