清晨七點整,直樹的生理時鐘準時把他喚醒。140Please respect copyright.PENANA3SjhBQNvba
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他起身,打開衣櫃,手在半空中停了一下。空了幾個格子。那幾件襯衫本來是湘琴燙好、照深淺排好的,現在不見了,剩下幾個空衣架在那裏晃着。直樹皺了一下眉,沒有多想,關上衣櫃門下樓。140Please respect copyright.PENANAuMQD4sD0GN
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他很篤定,湘琴只是鬧脾氣。今天早上她一定會出現在廚房,帶着愧疚,準備一桌誇張又難吃的早餐,然後用那雙濕漉漉的眼睛等他開口。140Please respect copyright.PENANAK0P5ep6MD1
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他走到餐桌前,腳步停住了。桌上兩片冷吐司,旁邊一碟奶油。沒有荷包蛋,沒有切成兔子形狀的蘋果,也沒有那張每天早上貼在他咖啡杯旁邊、寫着「直樹今天也要加油喔❤」的便利貼。140Please respect copyright.PENANArWPoxmDKcT
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江媽媽坐在桌子另一頭,表情跟那兩片吐司一樣冷,自顧自地喝着咖啡,連頭都沒抬。140Please respect copyright.PENANAOeGrNMbx4I
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「媽。湘琴回來了嗎?」140Please respect copyright.PENANASEY9VmcXUH
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「你說呢。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAe0N9edG8xc
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「她離不開熟悉的環境,」直樹推了推眼鏡,「一個人,她——」140Please respect copyright.PENANAM17z6RRoLX
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「夠了。」江媽媽打斷他,把咖啡杯放下來,聲音不大,但很清楚,「直樹,你不要每次都一副很會的樣子。湘琴不是你叫一聲就會回來的人,她也是人,心冷了就會走。早餐自己弄,別再等人伺候。」140Please respect copyright.PENANALuFuNVLBKo
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她站起身,走回房間,把門帶上。140Please respect copyright.PENANAli7CbKNfCh
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客廳很安靜。140Please respect copyright.PENANASspUis18sj
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直樹站在冰箱前想拿雞蛋,拉開冰箱門,手在裏面摸了一圈——他不知道雞蛋放哪層。以前湘琴會在每樣東西上貼便利貼,標日期,標位置,連「直樹不要動這個,這是要留着煮湯的」都寫得清清楚楚。140Please respect copyright.PENANAHjGBneDpME
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他盯着冰箱看了幾秒,把門關上,拿起那兩片冷吐司,站着吃完。140Please respect copyright.PENANAuXZ7CHGm2b
上午十點,醫院走廊。140Please respect copyright.PENANAN7kYWK8pGz
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直樹習慣性地往護理站那邊瞄了一眼,坐在那裏的是另一個實習護士,動作俐落,但少了那個一看到他就站起來的人。140Please respect copyright.PENANAUYzLiYHMj4
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「江醫師。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAZTbaaVUNWm
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清水護理長走過來,遞上一份文件,表情很平靜,但看他的眼神帶着一種說不清楚的意味。140Please respect copyright.PENANAiYpS20SPfx
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「這是袁湘琴提交的申請,她希望更換實習指導醫師。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAmwzXj7MIJb
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直樹伸手接過。他預期那張紙上會是情緒化的字句,比如「我受夠了」或「我要離他遠一點」。140Please respect copyright.PENANAr4Q4ro6wDi
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他低頭看了一眼,瞳孔微微收縮。140Please respect copyright.PENANALOrtA1QxMd
【主旨:申請更換實習指導醫師】140Please respect copyright.PENANAdmDwHGs6IK
一、鑒於實習生袁湘琴與現任指導醫師之溝通模式已產生邊際效益遞減,
為確保臨床教學之客觀性,特此申請調整。140Please respect copyright.PENANAV94cVyNz1d
二、為學習多元化護理照護,避免單一指導造成之思維侷限,
本人認為接受不同體系之醫師指導將有助於專業成長。140Please respect copyright.PENANAAAkX2xXapb
三、懇請院方准予調整,以維護醫療品質與實習效率。140Please respect copyright.PENANAJsJ1ZNcNpV
直樹看着「邊際效益遞減」和「思維侷限」這幾個詞,握着文件的手指不自覺地用力了。140Please respect copyright.PENANAASuAFuDwsG
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這幾個詞——是他以前訓她跟不上節奏、罵她沒效率時常用的詞。現在她學會了他的邏輯,原封不動地還回來,還寫得比他想像中更工整、更專業。140Please respect copyright.PENANAQbxkVz1jr9
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那幾個字,他再熟悉不過。140Please respect copyright.PENANALju2fu6k1X
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「江醫師,你的意見?」清水護理長語氣很平,「湘琴說她已經跟省立醫院的沈清揚醫師談過了,沈醫師那邊表示歡迎。只要你簽字,這份申請就生效。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAl0hviKOG7E
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「隨她。」140Please respect copyright.PENANA5jaAvNHplA
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他把文件推回護理長的托盤,動作比平時快了半拍。他走進診間,背對着門,聲音依然很冷:「她覺得換個地方就能變聰明,那就讓她去試試。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAwjzz7eJFop
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清水護理長看着他,沒有多說什麼,只是把文件收好。140Please respect copyright.PENANANublwO7ri3
傍晚六點,直樹把車停在幸福小館門口。140Please respect copyright.PENANAgVIVtvPHuK
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店裏一如往常熱氣騰騰,油煙和滷汁的味道從半掩的門縫飄出來,那是湘琴最熟悉、最愛往裏跑的地方。才叔正在吧台後忙着,看到直樹推門進來,握着鍋鏟的手明顯頓了一下,臉上原本的招呼笑容瞬間收掉,換成了一種讓直樹覺得陌生的冷淡。140Please respect copyright.PENANA4LUaDu4CSy
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「爸。」直樹語氣比平時軟了一點,「湘琴在嗎?」140Please respect copyright.PENANAioK0ZPKQ32
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才叔放下鍋鏟,隔着煙霧看着他。曾幾何時,他把直樹當親生兒子疼,甚至在湘琴受委屈時幫直樹說話。昨晚之後,他真的不知道還要怎麼看這個女婿。140Please respect copyright.PENANAmivD2AgXkW
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「要吃飯的話,那邊有空位。」才叔的語氣硬邦邦的,眼皮都沒抬,「找湘琴的話,她不在這。早上回來拿了剩下的行李,搬去學姊那裏了。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAKrRGIYmqr4
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「學姊?哪個學姊?她住哪?」直樹眉頭微皺。140Please respect copyright.PENANAQyn2QWoiZH
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「我不知道。知道了也不會告訴你。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAk1vcma5Mjj
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才叔轉身猛地翻炒鍋裏的菜,油煙嘩地升起來。他藉着那股煙霧擋着臉,飛快地用手背抹掉眼角的濕意。這輩子,他在人前哭過兩次。一次是湘琴媽走的那天,另一次,就是現在。他那時候怎麼會以為,會念書就會做人?140Please respect copyright.PENANA1PvuouX9LD
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直樹正要再問,門口傳來一陣高分貝的笑聲。140Please respect copyright.PENANAeir8f4AvMi
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「這家的招牌菜真的超好吃的啦!沈醫師你一定要試試看!」140Please respect copyright.PENANAYriYDAcVr7
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純美和留農走進來,一左一右夾着一個男人。那人穿着剪裁合身的西裝,手裏拿着一束淡雅的洋桔梗,氣度沉穩,看起來不像是會在小館子裏顯得彆扭的人。140Please respect copyright.PENANA03M1ExoNoB
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純美一看到直樹,誇張的笑容收了一半,轉頭用手肘捅了捅留農。「欸留農妳看,江大醫師耶。」純美揚起眉毛,語氣很甜,但字字帶刺,「哇,太陽打西邊出來喔?他也會自己跑來找人?」140Please respect copyright.PENANAuw2vSEn3na
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留農往直樹身上掃了一眼,冷哼了一聲:「啊就說嘛,家裏突然安靜下來,一時間不知道怎麼辦,對不對?」她別過頭,對着那位男士笑得燦爛,「沈醫師,今晚麻煩你照顧湘琴了喔!她今天穿了學姊幫她挑的裙子,真的超好看,跟以前那個小媳婦樣完全不一樣!」140Please respect copyright.PENANACFM6P5msEw
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直樹的視線從那束花移到那個男人臉上。140Please respect copyright.PENANAAfExmrgmqG
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那人沒有被他的眼神嚇到,反而從容地轉過身,大方地點了個頭:「江醫師,久仰。我是省立醫院復健科的沈清揚,也是現在照應湘琴的人。」140Please respect copyright.PENANA8VFK9JEkJZ
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直樹沒有回禮。他只是把視線放在那束洋桔梗上,聲音沉了下來:「湘琴在哪。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAyInokABqwU
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純美搶在沈清揚前面開口,語氣活潑得有點過分:「喔,那可不是你現在能管的事囉!」140Please respect copyright.PENANA32fWbtDnp9
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沈清揚不急,等純美說完,才溫和地補了一句:「江醫師,我覺得你可能誤會了一件事。湘琴不是『跟誰走』,是她自己決定要走去哪裏。」他頓了頓,「在我們眼中,她很清楚自己在幹嘛。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAe7IZbbU8FP
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他對才叔點了個頭打招呼,轉身跟着純美留農走向包廂。140Please respect copyright.PENANAwFn97814ae
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直樹站著,卻不知道要往哪裡走。140Please respect copyright.PENANA5717Jwh42t
深夜,江家臥室。140Please respect copyright.PENANAQx5Cn4DTbW
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直樹躺在床上,睡不着。那些畫面一直轉﹕才叔那雙發紅的眼睛;沈清揚那個說話慢條斯理,讓他覺得哪裏不對勁的笑容。140Please respect copyright.PENANAms8RASjInR
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他翻了個身,手習慣性地伸向床的另一側。冰的。床單平整,硬,沒有半點人的溫度。他把手縮回來,拿起手機。140Please respect copyright.PENANAHPIZnrqf3x
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撥出去。140Please respect copyright.PENANAfHJlP8RCh1
「您撥打的電話已關機——」140Please respect copyright.PENANAxhMiepMILV
他盯着螢幕看了幾秒,把手機放回枕頭旁邊。又拿起來。又撥。140Please respect copyright.PENANAJd5O1Ki3b7
「您撥打的電話已關機——」140Please respect copyright.PENANAq6Z0DFnWF0
與此同時,城市的另一端。140Please respect copyright.PENANAm6dfmXuYqP
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湘琴把手機螢幕關掉,看向窗外。台北101在夜空裏發着光,那麼高,那麼亮。她以前站在江家的陽台看夜景,會幻想有一天,她跟直樹一起站在那裏,他摟着她,說一句「辛苦了」。140Please respect copyright.PENANAhFMyfBtTA4
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但那只是她的幻想,一直都是。140Please respect copyright.PENANAA7fSgSV1Lo
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她深吸一口氣,用手背把臉上的淚痕抹掉,聲音很輕,像是說給自己聽:「這一次,我不追了。直樹,如果你的世界裏真的有我,那就讓我看看,少了那個每天追著你跑的袁湘琴你會不會……有那麼一點點的不習慣。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAZajVs39IDp
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她停了一下,補了一句:「但如果你還是不回頭,那我也該放手了。我不能再這樣了。」140Please respect copyright.PENANAtgg6jHQhtT
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窗外的燈光連成一片,很亮,但也很遠。她把手機收進抽屜,躺下來,闔上眼睛。
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