The cool feel against my skin

How do I explain

The sting then the relief 

How do I explain

The smile that lights my face

As blood drips out my wrist

No

I don't want to die

I just want to feel ALIVE

Please

Just let me feel alive 

How do I explain

The release of the days emotions

Pouring out with my blood

The one time I allow myself to feel

HOW DO I EXPLAIN

the addiction of the blade

the draw of its power

The only way I feel alive 

Is to drag it deeper into my skin

Trying to carve the words they said

Out of my mind

Maybe if I tried

You'd understand 

Maybe if I spoke 

You'd listen

But maybe won't save me