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人生苦短——死
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電視仍然亮著,新聞報導員正在講述關於疫情的新聞和消息。內容千篇一律,悶人又煩人。623Please respect copyright.PENANANsQg48GcU3
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他打個呵欠,伸個懶腰。雙掌使勁按壓梳化,借力撐起整個人,避免膝頭過份受力。許是在凹陷的梳化坐得太長時間,大腿和臀部均感到少許麻痺。不至於會跌倒的程度,但他下意識地一邊倚扶著傢具,一邊拖著腳步走向浴室。623Please respect copyright.PENANAt8vtAfPAHA
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人老了,身體差了,動作遲緩了,連小便如此簡單和基本的本能也變得困難。甭提總是瞄不準便器,尿液還要是逐滴逐滴慢慢滴出來,彷彿要滴乾他的尊嚴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAfLbVCUmMJQ
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怎麼辦?可以怎麼辦?吹口哨吧。口吹曲子,耳邊響起熟悉的歌聲,心裡默唸自勵自欺的歌詞。623Please respect copyright.PENANAIglQtDPCsV
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莫再悲 莫再傷 遇到悲哀休誇張623Please respect copyright.PENANAdLn559aIHH
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誰亦要經風與浪 誰遇挫敗不受傷623Please respect copyright.PENANAfALjb3nsxY
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逝去的 莫再想 路正崎嶇更漫長623Please respect copyright.PENANAIibbasUJUO
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何用嘆息風裏望 寶貴光陰笑著量623Please respect copyright.PENANAYlbHuWEeU8
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小便後,步出浴室,再次聽到報導員的沉悶腔調。623Please respect copyright.PENANAi73WgKQlg8
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抵不住。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4pkehxXmi0
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他決定到公園散步。623Please respect copyright.PENANAwJIMtvt5L1
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望望手錶,是上午十時半。難怪放眼所見多是上年紀的人。623Please respect copyright.PENANARKxC8uQcb0
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好福氣的,或是三五成群談天說地,或是在家傭的攙扶下散步。福薄的,或是推著購物車奔波買餸,或是顫巍巍地被送上療養院的巴士。623Please respect copyright.PENANAOD4xDmItv0
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自己有福氣嗎?托賴。能走能動能講能吃,與兒孫同住。雖偶有口角,卻也沒有特別煩心事。623Please respect copyright.PENANAYwIvTO1bvF
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他知道自己該要感恩,奈何始終沒能衷心感謝上天。623Please respect copyright.PENANAMYDXm0SVRT
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輕嘆一聲。繼續走。623Please respect copyright.PENANARplTMidEoH
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAp1dtKxBKeq
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他不自已憶起亡妻……623Please respect copyright.PENANAIU87epbYSz
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三年前的夏天,她在家跌倒,傷及腿部筋骨,自此總是步履不穩,走路時偶爾會突然腳軟跌倒。兒子勸她多休息,不要外出。她明白兒子苦心,奈何整天悶在家中令她心情抑鬱,精神越益差勁。623Please respect copyright.PENANAOQFJv80KNP
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他偷偷帶她到公園散步散心。623Please respect copyright.PENANAtZ2UKBXAYH
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「我的腿康復不了,是嗎?」623Please respect copyright.PENANA5ltkdNhAeF
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「不是。你向來身體強健,這小小傷勢不是大問題。」623Please respect copyright.PENANATs6KDcjMFe
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「我何時可以痊癒?我想去探望朋友。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAQl5ZoEvEZe
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「快了、快了。不用著急!」623Please respect copyright.PENANATULzmOpNPE
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「即是何時?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAq0bvh2PEkq
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「下一個夏天。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA5asFe3xX1j
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她幽幽回望,驚訝丈夫斬釘截鐵交出一個確實答案——醫生也不敢斷言她會否康復。623Please respect copyright.PENANAYIxRSh2h6y
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANA7DI8NuSjYV
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感動,明明眼前只有絕望。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEFLd8EGuPI
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她的手忽爾不再無力,牢牢緊挽住丈夫的臂膀。623Please respect copyright.PENANAy6Vc17NAZv
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奇蹟?希望?不。僅是信念,難以言喻的,難以理解的。他不是神、不是醫生、不是專業人士。他僅是一個脾氣古怪的躁狂糟老頭。但她就是相信他。623Please respect copyright.PENANA7QAr5Hs9yX
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內心終於安定下來。623Please respect copyright.PENANAiPXldKgf8s
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她沒再糾結於健康問題,開始向丈夫講述她的未來夏日大計:「探望朋友前,我要先辦一件十分要緊的事——吃『菠蘿油』!」623Please respect copyright.PENANA1bUujZQzJE
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「但你的血糖……」623Please respect copyright.PENANAvXNqIlmOlB
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「我向來身體強健,這小小血糖問題不是大問題。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAY60hWjtUOv
623Please respect copyright.PENANA4D4jiY2sSo
他會心一笑,笑她依舊貪吃如豬。623Please respect copyright.PENANAqAKEuk300g
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下一個夏天到來。她的腿傷還是沒能康復,走路時拐得更嚴重。623Please respect copyright.PENANASfod1j6RhV
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兒子送她一根拐杖。623Please respect copyright.PENANAMhFFJMt1tu
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當晚,她躲在浴室裡啜泣。他沒有上前安慰,因為所有安慰說話都沒能扭轉衰老之勢,倒不如讓她盡情宣洩情緒。623Please respect copyright.PENANATppxPyJUbA
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她不知道,整個晚上,丈夫徹夜無眠,眼睜睜望著天花,細聽她的哭聲,細想她的未來。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4EiSskn5Ya
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天亮,兒子和媳婦準時離家上班去。他送孫兒到學校後,馬上回家慫恿妻子一起外出逛街。「夏天嘛!當然要吃『菠蘿油』!」623Please respect copyright.PENANACQphanbM5I
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妻子笑了,連忙穿上最漂亮的衣褲鞋襪,戴上最喜歡的髮夾,塗上最鮮色的紅唇膏。她沒有使用兒子送她的拐杖,因為丈夫就是世上最好的拐杖——依著他、靠著他,她安然走到今時今日的七十高齡。623Please respect copyright.PENANAem5sb5Homh
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鐵路車站裡,人流如鯽,彷彿有股無形的強力水流在背後催促著。他懶理,繼續保持慢調,只知自己不僅是自己。623Please respect copyright.PENANArYsVSwf7in
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終於來到馳名的冰廳,二人各點一客「菠蘿油」。不好吃,亦不是回憶中的味道。623Please respect copyright.PENANA17HQ8gdZ66
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不要緊,反正「菠蘿油」僅是一個名目而已。623Please respect copyright.PENANACw6Rlkx6DC
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夫婦相視而笑。笑甚麼,不知道,大概是完成了十分重要的事情吧。623Please respect copyright.PENANAD3srkc8jZt
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於願足矣。623Please respect copyright.PENANAgqdw8yFVdk
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沒過幾天,還未開始探望朋友,她已於睡夢中悄然離世……623Please respect copyright.PENANAwZZKWWDm8W
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公園裡,樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAQfVEC0OMLx
623Please respect copyright.PENANActbwT0XXGa
他不動聲息,藏起思念,繼續開步走。623Please respect copyright.PENANA2ImTyoIhtA
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總得走下去,不是嗎?623Please respect copyright.PENANAy4kuliOxrP
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不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEpty3D8QON
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走到涼亭,看見熟悉的棋友正在對弈。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4Q2n6cRHf1
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棋局中,事事分明,步步無情。623Please respect copyright.PENANAy9mOUzKgWk
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他專注觀賽,全然忘記身後的樹影鳥蟲。
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人生苦短——病623Please respect copyright.PENANA5akd6bdl5u
他在床上徐徐張眼。623Please respect copyright.PENANAykALSqU643
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床褥太軟,腰骨微痛。這不是家裡的床。623Please respect copyright.PENANAsqve28NW40
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暈眩冉退,目光聚焦。看見多張整齊排列的病床和面無血色的老者,他瞬間得出以下結論——醫院。623Please respect copyright.PENANAijnkeMIirp
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嗯。醫院。623Please respect copyright.PENANAKvTI2if04S
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接受醫生的檢查,證實無恙後,獲告知可以隨時出院。護士根據過往紀錄,已通知兒子和媳婦,只待他們前來接送。623Please respect copyright.PENANA5JAe47Y6ML
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醫生離開後,護士也去忙別的。623Please respect copyright.PENANAElo3f3NLRS
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他呆坐床上,默默看著醫護人員在多張病床之間來來回回,感覺實在又虛幻——活到這個年紀,總得要到醫院走幾趟,實屬平常不過的事情,對吧?623Please respect copyright.PENANAWRhRtFUNRE
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如他所料,兒子在晚上八時許現身。一臉倦容。623Please respect copyright.PENANA5iFgOnLV5j
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「醫生說我沒大礙。可能是公園太熱,熱昏了。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAATIDdjDQq2
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「那就多待在家裡避暑,不要外出四處走動。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA2Da6a8ftNy
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「知道。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA8k95y95GgY
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兒子攙扶他走出醫院,在街邊截下的士,直驅住所。623Please respect copyright.PENANAa1wZ737U1I
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車廂裡,二人不發一言,各自對著窗外景物發愣。623Please respect copyright.PENANAnglMtnEqIM
623Please respect copyright.PENANAiuGwoSOUVH
沒有怨氣或鬱結,只有緩解不了的疲憊。身心俱疲。623Please respect copyright.PENANAVLVPdH03cj
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黃色街燈在夜幕下迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。623Please respect copyright.PENANASNtt8SE8Oy
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兒子倏忽開口,神色惘然。623Please respect copyright.PENANASs3aI2dddd
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「我有末期肝癌,剩半年壽命。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA2UaWG3OLXi
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「她知道了沒?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAWworK5NOhh
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「不打算告訴她。」623Please respect copyright.PENANApTzwNxW1Fv
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「你如何在她不知情的情況下抽時間接受治療?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAPHSy8vwKJ4
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兒子笑而不語。623Please respect copyright.PENANAE4BWVLKPEJ
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他愣住片刻,良久才道:「明白。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAJmAyCtI9H4
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兒子輕拍他的肩膊,以示感謝。623Please respect copyright.PENANAUX4gn5zB7U
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抵家。兒子依舊朝妻兒溫柔地微笑。他沒作聲,逕自到浴室洗澡去。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEEcA9WPFJQ
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蒸氣瀰漫,看得見,抓不著。甚麼也抓不著。抓不著開始,也抓不著終結。623Please respect copyright.PENANA6FbDGUL6wq
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沒選擇的情況下被生產下來,沒能選擇長大與否,沒選擇的情況下經歷病痛,沒選擇的情況下死去。生老病死,全是沒能選擇的。623Please respect copyright.PENANA5aF7WnUEeJ
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翌日,兒子和媳婦如常上班,孫兒如常上學,家裡只餘他一人。百無聊賴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAgZSDWLTLlg
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他決定到公園走走。623Please respect copyright.PENANAqJU8n7Mn0o
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樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAcTRAx4nAG1
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此樹是否去年那樹?此鳥是否去年那鳥?此蟲是否去年那蟲?要緊,不要緊。在意,沒能在意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAyhQKChAe4y
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幽幽踏步,皆因內心焦躁。623Please respect copyright.PENANAnMyuD5xcTT
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來到涼亭,棋友們向他問好。他笑說自己比年輕人更健康。棋友們以為再也看不見他,感到難過。他認為無論難過與否,該死的時候總得要死。623Please respect copyright.PENANAZrknmC760O
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全場一片默然。623Please respect copyright.PENANAXlbNn98YO5
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聊聊笑笑罷。下棋耍樂罷。623Please respect copyright.PENANANm0FhEhfzR
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不要問為何。不要問感受。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEjKTKSnWit
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有如那樹那鳥那蟲。沒能在意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAd4FUCU16KM
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正午,他前去學校接送孫兒。孫兒說吃過同學送的怪味糖果後身體輕微不適。他不以為然。下午,孫兒痾嘔不止。聯絡不上兒子和媳婦,他只好獨個兒帶孫兒到醫院去。輪候期間,一張發白的熟悉臉孔癱軟在擔架床上,被匆匆推送入急症室深處。623Please respect copyright.PENANAtnJVxcmmzZ
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那是今早與他談笑風生的其中一位棋友。623Please respect copyright.PENANA6pIxCzCT0H
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數個身穿便服的男女先後抵達護士站,然後按指示守在急症室外。沒多久,醫生步出急症室,宣告棋友的死訊。男男女女隨即哭作一團。623Please respect copyright.PENANAF0NYWpQ2z8
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他默默將孫兒擁入懷裡。623Please respect copyright.PENANAaHjrqDZlHI
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心慌的極致原來是平靜和淡然,皆因透徹體悟到自身的無能無力無奈。623Please respect copyright.PENANA0wCG3eAFhH
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「爺爺,很熱啊!」不知袖裡的孫兒輕輕推開他。623Please respect copyright.PENANA0qcKXmQdFs
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「嗯。」對於眼前一切,他花盡全身力氣發出渺小的一聲。623Please respect copyright.PENANAp0eUYnWoVo
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晚餐後,兒子在露台抽菸,媳婦在廚房洗碗。孫兒是個好動的孩子,五分鐘前肚痾得雙腿發軟,此刻已然在梳化上跳個不停。623Please respect copyright.PENANAERyMK1WINF
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跳跳跳,有節奏地跳個不停,像心臟。623Please respect copyright.PENANAemXaZ29cBD
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心臟停止跳動當刻,棋友有何感受?掛念未完的棋局?掛念急症室外的男女親友?623Please respect copyright.PENANAPZMFyTyVDY
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他的目光不期然落瞄向露台,看著兒子呼出個個煙圈,圈圈復圈圈,冉升消散不復見。623Please respect copyright.PENANAUqRo2qx8OB
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不復見。623Please respect copyright.PENANAaLJVVJhsgs
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他莫名的被深深憾動。623Please respect copyright.PENANAzOl5plRymY
623Please respect copyright.PENANABtf1KjYbmq
走到兒子身邊,告知棋友的死訊。623Please respect copyright.PENANAm9AyhjrBHL
623Please respect copyright.PENANALxXADw5BTu
毋須明言,兒子已猜測到他的用意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAf70ZLZJOsC
623Please respect copyright.PENANAy8nM5LsFhT
「我不怕死。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAxDX3CBRHEO
623Please respect copyright.PENANAuPfXC1pHRL
「我也不怕死——死亡並不可怕,只怕沒能完成想要完成的事。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA1HOFnPzZdI
623Please respect copyright.PENANALnBy8vTonm
「你有沒有想要完成的事?」623Please respect copyright.PENANA78ChdrkTGf
623Please respect copyright.PENANASAmaus2yXY
「每年夏天買『菠蘿油』給你媽。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA95PfaaX3Vu
623Please respect copyright.PENANAG3eKSkRcHo
「她的叮囑?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAdjTyz2MCa1
623Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ6Hu52aEC
「不。她離開得太突然,我沒機會問她,只得按照她生前喜好去估計她的心思。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA4RwURCd3gZ
623Please respect copyright.PENANA8YftGTPJDw
「別傻!她不願看見你耿耿於懷!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ1TanCJ4c
623Please respect copyright.PENANA7wrdyQ739Z
「她沒這麼說。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAvw844RZlvM
623Please respect copyright.PENANA7Sb2fdBtfM
兒子苦笑,笑他彆扭。623Please respect copyright.PENANA99QbPNhCVC
623Please respect copyright.PENANAeQYht34pMI
再次不了了之?他以為是,直至夜半聞得媳婦哭聲不絕。623Please respect copyright.PENANACquHQGRhr0
623Please respect copyright.PENANAW7lfKTh9xV
無論大家怎樣勸說,兒子依然不願接受治療,堅持要盡量留下金錢予家人。623Please respect copyright.PENANAX4WwrofImu
623Please respect copyright.PENANAAow5A2Eg0Q
半年後,兒子沒死去。一年後,兒子仍活著。三年半後,兒子依然沒斷氣。623Please respect copyright.PENANAxqbmNu1evl
623Please respect copyright.PENANAiQ1wSLluVV
問何解。醫生說原因不明,但癌細胞消失了。兒子說只想盡力工作賺錢養活家人。623Please respect copyright.PENANAkwyLwDa0Bf
623Please respect copyright.PENANA1SOpbV7sLc
離開醫院、歸家路上,兒子和他拐到公園散步去。623Please respect copyright.PENANAuD3yFfZKP5
623Please respect copyright.PENANANZhyIGTFGM
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAvOzz7EdT8P
623Please respect copyright.PENANATmt2REaF78
「你多活了三年半。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAMcA9EU5NQt
623Please respect copyright.PENANAl4Si4GANcY
「我多吃了三個『菠蘿油』。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAfCdGZqDAZH
623Please respect copyright.PENANA19vzwH4CAh
「想繼續吃?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAbwaWkjZ4V0
623Please respect copyright.PENANA8vvFAdyHey
「是。期待下一個夏天。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAcSA6X3iEDr
623Please respect copyright.PENANA3DnVvaOjX9
兒子認為這次大病是上天的提醒,希望他往後好好珍惜時間。打算辭職休養一段日子,在接下來的暑假與大家出國旅遊後,才重回職場繼續拼搏。623Please respect copyright.PENANAR6mk0txSR5
623Please respect copyright.PENANAyW0ZBTf83x
他為兒子衷心高興著,亦感謝上蒼的好生之德,沒有帶走……623Please respect copyright.PENANA9nY8JpYd9s
623Please respect copyright.PENANAfh7Z21MWjd
兒子呢?623Please respect copyright.PENANAWQF42k6mWi
623Please respect copyright.PENANAHOe7iaVT5H
悉才尚在身邊的兒子不見蹤影。623Please respect copyright.PENANAESfopbDZtK
623Please respect copyright.PENANAkkhFHotTI0
啊!記起來了。623Please respect copyright.PENANAigMK53L6ks
623Please respect copyright.PENANADXuIuJZqVo
兒子去年在暑假前遇上意外,下半身癱瘓。沒能出國旅遊,沒能重回職場,沒能享受期待已久的夏日。623Please respect copyright.PENANAxvQf5YmkVQ
623Please respect copyright.PENANA1RUSNCzfdG
果然。623Please respect copyright.PENANAv9oxN3FgAJ
623Please respect copyright.PENANA5M48cTO8RG
不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。623Please respect copyright.PENANAjelP6xu64P
623Please respect copyright.PENANAzIyXoFFTkn
婆娑樹影之下、鳥叫蟲鳴之中,他繼續走。623Please respect copyright.PENANAx4BMdRJOEf
623Please respect copyright.PENANAhKxwXQBmyy
幽幽踏步慢慢走。
623Please respect copyright.PENANAmUN0597uoc
死病老生——老623Please respect copyright.PENANAtjZpdtpCfm
623Please respect copyright.PENANAonUDDENYB1
他在搖搖椅上猛然醒來。623Please respect copyright.PENANAK6un0uISy9
623Please respect copyright.PENANA1jE5rC3MIr
望望掛鐘,七時半。該要喚醒孫兒。623Please respect copyright.PENANAltPuJJeQfE
623Please respect copyright.PENANAmSJEz04Oxz
輕敲孫兒房門,不聞回應。推門內進,不見孫兒身影。房內枱櫃床鋪依舊,掛牆照片卻變了樣——相中人稚嫩不再,五官英氣。他頓時意會到孫兒早已不再是黏人的小孩子,不需要他的照顧。623Please respect copyright.PENANAOzogL6rSpH
623Please respect copyright.PENANAici4FN94ZF
若有所失。623Please respect copyright.PENANAb8b5PYUTwr
623Please respect copyright.PENANAgmqoBiB3QC
到公園散心吧。623Please respect copyright.PENANAbyqZ9Jytb8
623Please respect copyright.PENANAxGRgWcbb9N
公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEbwcNZQjzU
623Please respect copyright.PENANAP0vxoUgIni
憶起跟妻子慢步於蟲鳴之中,憶起與兒子傻傻追尋鳥叫源頭,憶起和孫兒偷偷在樹身刻字。623Please respect copyright.PENANACR0NI1Z4E1
623Please respect copyright.PENANASBOYPW2u3J
離開緩步徑,闖入樹林。623Please respect copyright.PENANAt1l1JkwHYV
623Please respect copyright.PENANAHieIAWcYPx
找樹。找到那樹。623Please respect copyright.PENANAFNfCpCFXOq
623Please respect copyright.PENANAogqTBtGt1Q
不,不是它——因著樹身變得粗壯,刻記模糊難辨。623Please respect copyright.PENANAyZNOGsPs0L
623Please respect copyright.PENANA8z5CVtQWHP
此樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。623Please respect copyright.PENANA6rFhZmloEx
623Please respect copyright.PENANAvhAUYYy5m5
長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAoHdQpwevY8
623Please respect copyright.PENANA4iSfZp1qxK
不願意。623Please respect copyright.PENANALiQ45DEn0Y
623Please respect copyright.PENANAQ703cJqA1g
想逃。623Please respect copyright.PENANAjn1Au39Nez
623Please respect copyright.PENANAojpHdCNdNU
逃!623Please respect copyright.PENANAUCjRBpoFkI
623Please respect copyright.PENANAanRFXrxp5j
逃出樹林。623Please respect copyright.PENANAJYk0sCX3Rl
623Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7bLUZgjZw
彷如隔世。623Please respect copyright.PENANA2QQPx5FX3k
623Please respect copyright.PENANAAkTyaQGjJi
陽光刺眼,氣溫熬人。不是回憶裡的現實。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEFWLxxncgR
623Please respect copyright.PENANAYqZ7v0YTfY
倏忽忘了路,忘了如何走下去……623Please respect copyright.PENANARv0NB6mXfV
623Please respect copyright.PENANATwQYRPn2tl
一青年步入警署。623Please respect copyright.PENANAF8w65n3Iij
623Please respect copyright.PENANAj5HIv4UWaz
「你是誰?」623Please respect copyright.PENANApfzRYKlfhV
623Please respect copyright.PENANADwVL8EY1TD
「我是你的孫兒。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAnGy4lnYwcJ
623Please respect copyright.PENANAVn2g7aMUzu
「嗯……」623Please respect copyright.PENANAjuuvpkMgNO
623Please respect copyright.PENANAmxiAr2Z1cv
「爺爺,回家吧。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA50krNy9y6W
623Please respect copyright.PENANAPtjg5S7FuT
「嗯……」623Please respect copyright.PENANAidJQRX6tJr
623Please respect copyright.PENANAEdmbfrHfo8
家。他在搖搖椅上搖著、搖著,天花燈在眼前晃著、晃著,孫兒在廚房裡頭忙著、忙著。623Please respect copyright.PENANAsrevrYlUun
623Please respect copyright.PENANAB6xn8pyvJp
一切近在眼前,卻又無比遙遠。反觀那些遠在天邊的,竟顯得如此接近。623Please respect copyright.PENANAfCoJkNWxQz
623Please respect copyright.PENANA9Lh6WmquLv
是否忘記了甚麼?623Please respect copyright.PENANA8e80oge27M
623Please respect copyright.PENANARfRSHNnl9M
目光無意間落在緊閉的主人房房門上——何解兒子沒有一起吃午餐?623Please respect copyright.PENANA6qeRnSvSTL
623Please respect copyright.PENANA1GgC8wZfe2
輕敲主人房房門,不聞回應。欲推門內進,卻發現房門上鎖——自己被兒子嫌棄了嗎?623Please respect copyright.PENANAI76LEFnkSP
623Please respect copyright.PENANAVYOjGGiXsI
激動。拍拍拍,踢踢踢,吵吵吵。623Please respect copyright.PENANAaDIb1DXBkf
623Please respect copyright.PENANAMkF05Ipt2F
「快開門!我要跟你聊天!快開門!來!快開門!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAArZBFOnSO5
623Please respect copyright.PENANAr4vt4qB0Fm
孫兒應聲衝出廚房,上前阻止他吵鬧。拍門的手轉而搥打孫兒。孫兒逆來順受,硬生生吃痛。623Please respect copyright.PENANA5Rf1BU3xuH
623Please respect copyright.PENANA8mKzd5ak7Q
「爸爸不在房間裡。」623Please respect copyright.PENANATobjnThdcg
623Please respect copyright.PENANAPgMlm2Lwyw
「你騙我!他一定在裡面!」623Please respect copyright.PENANA3fHCpIV2RN
623Please respect copyright.PENANA2qTw5hObiO
「爺爺,你看看掛鐘——爸爸尚未下班,還在公司。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA9Iq6rzPkeg
623Please respect copyright.PENANAcqxmjlePRw
未下班?在公司?他瞄向掛鐘——的確未到兒子下班時間。可是總覺得有甚麼不對勁……623Please respect copyright.PENANAckKT9YQSZL
623Please respect copyright.PENANAIy7DXjD252
見他愣住,孫兒馬上抓緊時機分散他的注意力:「爺爺,不如一起到公園散步。」623Please respect copyright.PENANARAmxqz9oNO
623Please respect copyright.PENANAhkKJONO0up
公園裡,美好回憶俯拾皆是。623Please respect copyright.PENANABkxhbEyTjz
623Please respect copyright.PENANAbgzbYLVMCk
他享受沿路的樹影鳥蟲,孫兒只著眼於面前的佝僂身影——希望他忘記剛才的亂局吧,那就不用向他解釋家庭現況……623Please respect copyright.PENANARshuNvACng
623Please respect copyright.PENANA5gd3QypD1H
爸爸癱瘓後,媽媽獨力扛起家庭重擔。數年以來,乳臭未乾的孩子、癱瘓的丈夫、腦部日漸退化的家翁以及工作壓力狠狠將她壓垮。她捱不下去,離家出走。爸爸難以接受愛妻的絕情,一直鬱鬱寡歡。623Please respect copyright.PENANAwBsp2ZLxNB
623Please respect copyright.PENANAEE1UkMKJ3b
某個深夜,忽聞爺爺自言自語。起床查探,驚見爺爺對著垂頭不動的爸爸侃侃而談。窗戶半掩,冷風吹得爸爸頭髮凌亂,臉色慘白。滿房遍地都是涼透的菸屁股。淡淡的菸味在鼻腔彌留不散,卻偏偏嗅不出半絲生命的氣息……623Please respect copyright.PENANAU8Wi3gOosV
623Please respect copyright.PENANA72rbZ1QyC7
他輕拍孫兒肩膀。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4HONTjq95C
623Please respect copyright.PENANAV7LsbzO7MB
「不用發愁啊!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAuIk7tFHUTu
623Please respect copyright.PENANAKkQkqL7IeD
「你知道我在愁甚麼?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAxPF2AUXseA
623Please respect copyright.PENANAcVm7tsXwsu
「考試成績嘛!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAJLwSbh70Ag
623Please respect copyright.PENANAPlrdyi5oR3
「對!我就是擔心考試成績!」623Please respect copyright.PENANA1qp4C68QYK
623Please respect copyright.PENANAd2JkGfGtfX
「傻孩子!考試只是人生的一小部份,毋須將成績看得過份重要!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAmPFKzcuZ4e
623Please respect copyright.PENANASwEZSBLwHq
「嗯,我知道了……」623Please respect copyright.PENANAjHmmtyv8Ex
623Please respect copyright.PENANAWT7ZYAkP2T
孫兒唯唯諾諾,以假笑作結。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4CfvpA7jeg
623Please respect copyright.PENANA47EKlfSCgE
結伴走了又一段路。623Please respect copyright.PENANAGVwDgF2q3s
623Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7ZU0Lkgtz
他望望孫兒——像曾經的兒子,也像曾經的他。623Please respect copyright.PENANAg5kUoUODyO
623Please respect copyright.PENANAon0UrErIh8
憶起關於兒子的一切,憶起關於自己的一切。623Please respect copyright.PENANAmKOyRL1pV3
623Please respect copyright.PENANAH3B8Ag5oqJ
希望孫身兒能夠好好活下去,活得比兒子好,活得比他好。623Please respect copyright.PENANALQ112cBU22
623Please respect copyright.PENANAFnULantXwa
絕不能重覆亡妻與兒子的錯誤,留下一堆永遠沒解的執著予孫兒。623Please respect copyright.PENANAL6uJvj4vmp
623Please respect copyright.PENANA7oVJtZ4Wzy
他輕拍孫兒肩膀。623Please respect copyright.PENANASGZe7U5isB
623Please respect copyright.PENANAdfyUndABP7
「不用發愁啊!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAy5qJMwbtnM
623Please respect copyright.PENANAnvKshvpnmd
「爺爺放心!考試而已,難不倒我!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAGwly83LWrC
623Please respect copyright.PENANA5gNtgNw6HN
「對於考試也好、爺爺也好,如果你累了,就乾脆放下吧!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAYoyAkuwUm7
623Please respect copyright.PENANAjsSETnlH3B
他淡然一笑,笑孫兒長高長肉不長大。623Please respect copyright.PENANA0nBumpKjbs
623Please respect copyright.PENANAj8CiqtHiRU
孫兒傻了眼——他是真瘋或是假傻?623Please respect copyright.PENANAKdVGxWjAJY
623Please respect copyright.PENANAAcNpWkW4mS
沒待孫兒辨清真假,他已然幽幽踏步開步走。623Please respect copyright.PENANAXYcxWuwINj
623Please respect copyright.PENANAItLewrnPEo
孫兒沒有追上。知道自己該要追上,但雙腳偏偏誠實地佇立原地——多麼希望爺爺可以從此消失。623Please respect copyright.PENANAX04Gg1v0Aw
623Please respect copyright.PENANAakjiDPVEJM
佝僂身影幽幽遠去,沒入婆娑樹影當中不復見。623Please respect copyright.PENANA1UrsqD7XVf
623Please respect copyright.PENANAQNUrOsnRKH
鳥繼續叫,蟲繼續鳴,不過往後的夏天從此走了調。623Please respect copyright.PENANA9lasI3Ihtz
623Please respect copyright.PENANAQCDkWv4rn5
沒有在意的人,沒有在意自己的人,無論願意不願意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAbeI5nN0GtK
623Please respect copyright.PENANA4SAjF8e3sd
幽幽踏步慢慢走。慢慢記起很多,慢慢忘記很多。623Please respect copyright.PENANAwt5DIxQfHY
623Please respect copyright.PENANACN9Pi6CiIV
忘記為何自己會獨自一人走在樹林當中。623Please respect copyright.PENANAYO8Okc5d15
623Please respect copyright.PENANA2O2KhOWiIr
找樹?找不到那樹。623Please respect copyright.PENANAUl3ahivbl4
623Please respect copyright.PENANAKPTF2J3SQ7
樹不是當年那樹,正如現時的自己亦不是當年的自己。623Please respect copyright.PENANAvpTUdcYPJb
623Please respect copyright.PENANAnE4NanxnQj
長大、老去、病倒、死亡,無論願意不願意。623Please respect copyright.PENANA15XYWoh0e6
623Please respect copyright.PENANAB8XQQrwe8y
願意。623Please respect copyright.PENANAYTV9pWsyU0
623Please respect copyright.PENANA2DaM22k40m
無謂白花力氣去逃避。無人能夠逃過生老病死。623Please respect copyright.PENANAq0aqPvPHlg
623Please respect copyright.PENANAB6KAlSG6yg
身累,心累。就此停下來,可以嗎……623Please respect copyright.PENANA5mYF3KFNFr
623Please respect copyright.PENANAaQBhfBHldA
一青年步入醫院。623Please respect copyright.PENANAaInhEMRUCg
623Please respect copyright.PENANACDRF40tpVu
「你是誰?」623Please respect copyright.PENANAnF5twcNRYW
623Please respect copyright.PENANAbxQs9CYKkN
「我是你的孫兒。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAET4Ge0qRmm
623Please respect copyright.PENANASqjWFtq0q8
「嗯……」623Please respect copyright.PENANAvoz1fyEnly
623Please respect copyright.PENANAxSMbKKYcQV
「爺爺,回家吧。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAIAosDI7sEf
623Please respect copyright.PENANAVwU7dkc5B3
「嗯……」
623Please respect copyright.PENANAp5OGpwSoHH
623Please respect copyright.PENANAaFxmXQbrl3
死病老生——生623Please respect copyright.PENANAgLympSpbkh
623Please respect copyright.PENANAHyMWfv1nDS
他在輪椅上猛然醒來。623Please respect copyright.PENANAskzXnd7MEQ
623Please respect copyright.PENANACV9QOze0Wj
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAOSnoFKZNUj
623Please respect copyright.PENANAAExWNVW6VE
爺孫二人身處公園大道上。623Please respect copyright.PENANAZYvpYvY1i7
623Please respect copyright.PENANAWyNbueBmx6
「口渴嗎?來,喝些許清水吧!」623Please respect copyright.PENANAN5TDGINKlJ
623Please respect copyright.PENANAu7iEiqnq5g
孫兒停步,從背囊掏出保溫水壺,欠身將插於壺嘴的飲管置於他雙唇之間。623Please respect copyright.PENANAeD4jerMciw
623Please respect copyright.PENANAzKWgrk8nhc
他沒有吸吮。623Please respect copyright.PENANArcW8mnMtEM
623Please respect copyright.PENANArFN0lKk0NE
孫兒保持這姿勢好一會,惟見他沒反應,也只好收起水壺。623Please respect copyright.PENANA9ssyzbIdE4
623Please respect copyright.PENANAPUM7VClyii
罷。623Please respect copyright.PENANA7kplkTvyoH
623Please respect copyright.PENANAbVrfZeBGJd
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANABdoJJpR9G8
623Please respect copyright.PENANA13muNwZ2Kt
他覺得這地方很眼熟,卻又苦苦想不起更多關於這地方的回應。623Please respect copyright.PENANAd3LGGygzKk
623Please respect copyright.PENANA7xv9DuFOlv
不要緊。623Please respect copyright.PENANAbYYI1iLdYp
623Please respect copyright.PENANAkCk2WPJG7L
反正該是不重要的事情——自己寶刀未老,才未糊塗得忘記重要事情。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4zcRJRhsqx
623Please respect copyright.PENANAakQ45NrWUj
他仍是那個身體健康的他,每天為養活妻兒勞碌奔波。妻子貪吃,尤愛「菠蘿油」,於是他偶爾會帶她到冰廳享用下午茶。兒子是個單純正直的小孩,深信「一分耕耘,一分收穫」,於是他一直暗暗為兒子籌謀、護航……他很自豪,自覺是個好丈夫、好爸爸。623Please respect copyright.PENANAC4r6QrNmqA
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嘴角輕揚。623Please respect copyright.PENANAEnnAc5I6pj
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一。623Please respect copyright.PENANAiuGPsncwY2
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二。623Please respect copyright.PENANAf0mlh3cPrI
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三。623Please respect copyright.PENANADzVcRbZ0E1
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那抹難以察覺的微笑僅維持了三秒。623Please respect copyright.PENANAS9kmAmtFfW
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三秒後,他忘記了前三秒的快樂,正如他忘記了大半生的重要人事物。623Please respect copyright.PENANAfhmLv7clEd
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要緊的,不再要緊。623Please respect copyright.PENANADD9lfk4Mdr
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罷。623Please respect copyright.PENANARexoMJw19F
623Please respect copyright.PENANAkP1ENz9Ep8
樹影婆娑,鳥叫蟲鳴。623Please respect copyright.PENANAdonpsTMyuB
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循著鳥蟲之聲,他的眼珠子微微往上瞄。葉間隙縫的陽光誘人卻刺眼。623Please respect copyright.PENANAvqnZj4j3KU
623Please respect copyright.PENANArg7lad1h2d
輪椅一直前進,映入眼簾的紛亂光影不斷交替、退去、消失。623Please respect copyright.PENANA8HgXethTCF
623Please respect copyright.PENANAKU7yjOk8q7
在最後的最後,他眼前只餘一盞佇立於公園外的交通燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANASd9THgUZOs
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紅燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANAUnZqFkKc9O
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「爺爺,這可能是我們最後一次一起逛公園。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAMkWYduiFH5
623Please respect copyright.PENANAbuVHijDtUY
孫兒彷彿自言自語。623Please respect copyright.PENANAJcMDXj6zvE
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綠燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANAuc2uTcweAV
623Please respect copyright.PENANA61SVftJXGQ
孫兒沒有開步走。623Please respect copyright.PENANA3h5plc0teu
623Please respect copyright.PENANANmuS6RPrFg
紅燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANA6Ul3TXOo8b
623Please respect copyright.PENANAfmjbgSXeWM
「爺爺,我日後會盡量抽時間去探望你。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAjHXtRu8Edu
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孫兒彷彿對空氣許下諾言。623Please respect copyright.PENANAYX2d3bdx8x
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綠燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANAMvXLJcdtrf
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孫兒仍然沒有開步走。623Please respect copyright.PENANAdFXoVf4kXI
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紅燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANA8PpgndxLYL
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「爺爺,你會怪責我嗎?」623Please respect copyright.PENANABNV6yHC4RN
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孫兒問空氣,縱使知道空氣沒能回應。623Please respect copyright.PENANAGPizg9V7A9
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綠燈。623Please respect copyright.PENANA4VXdRIpsmW
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「爺爺,放心。我會努力繼續走。」623Please respect copyright.PENANAemQXbnS4cL
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孫兒抿抿雙唇,藏起憂思,推著輪椅開步走。623Please respect copyright.PENANAbfalVWm1nS
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總得走下去,不是嗎?不努力走下去,就不會知道下一個夏天是甚麼光景。623Please respect copyright.PENANACH1ZKSpDN2
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這是從他身上學懂的。623Please respect copyright.PENANADL7CA6E5Mr
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一生受用。623Please respect copyright.PENANAvKVrQZkMbJ
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「爺爺,謝謝你。」623Please respect copyright.PENANA2mBZphdjgE
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孫兒的話猶如耳邊風,進不了他的耳,到不了他的心。623Please respect copyright.PENANAnTUL73kNRD
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要緊的,其實不要緊。623Please respect copyright.PENANAspfn452Lig
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罷。623Please respect copyright.PENANAt64P9VB6FK
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他被送上安老院專車。623Please respect copyright.PENANAhFqx3AtxgN
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車窗外,無光街燈迅速往後退。一盞、兩盞、三盞……不盡,無窮。623Please respect copyright.PENANAwwlRNQiySw
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腦海裡,無數樹影鳥蟲交替、退去、消失。623Please respect copyright.PENANAn8u5LKfhBM
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他被動地遠離昔日一切。623Please respect copyright.PENANAfJiD4yMijM
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要緊的,不再要緊。623Please respect copyright.PENANARi0CuMsIYU
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他克盡己任,沒有遺憾。623Please respect copyright.PENANAnsGuD4tNs8
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他忘記前塵,沒有執著。623Please respect copyright.PENANAru68mP84lj
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有如被踐踏的梳化,有如被點燃的香菸,有如被吞吃的「菠蘿油」。623Please respect copyright.PENANAANxFjuBYlU
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毫不在意未來的每個夏日。