White sheets stained red in a hotel bed353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YbTcvbxTw
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYx2GolnQbT
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwqZIx9zQp
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPFwYKTEJm
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5FC5WmWp8
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5Bq65n7BF
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeTdHrChoO
Vivid visions invading my rest 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG3dH6wRZZ8
I can't sleep because all I see is death353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5hNrPbWthX
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXRfzknLv2c
Thinking about death at such an early age353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxNH7Xid1o
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxFDdJh1DQ
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNfURs2YzE
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhBy5dTt24
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxNbmqkclwE
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn58hd0ilQi
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQSrsilNeU
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WHiG1e7cK
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyAjhfyVbN
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWF10sRqc2
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr5IhJb7k6
Nobody actually cares until you're dead353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzbvUQXzQPa
Until you're another headline in the news353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIi76vrA8Q8
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50B0qtrXda
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqb7QDentL
"I miss you today" 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHeOQOTIdVr
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPGUdqw9vR8
But they care now, 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrx2LVbzc6Q
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVwL5RPnob
Mixed signals is all they send353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOhki39d0Ej
One day I matter to them 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqCzev6qW3
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0GDz06rId
A few months ago, I felt like flying 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZtlrjDrEY
A few months ago, I truly felt alive353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6aKRqTOuA
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkDAgOEOUC
It's hard to explain with words,353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1d1SyenXQ1
How the silence kills 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAp4aR8tu7
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FbyG9wpmP
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBpwoq5YJG
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNPXizBL4o
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhVcW76HLd4
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrfeCaMrrfd
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3RJQUq8o8f
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraPEG2oUeU
The little voice in my head, it screams it353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLfIT1MHgK
"This was their choice"353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQC2jz5BGpb
And to be lonely all the time is mine353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDeE7al6Lsk
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFuukh3qN9
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKkRJRkzJn
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdv3ZfCzPeY
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbkMbcY1tE
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnT21T8zYLC
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidWJJeTgoI
I wish somebody would call353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0NMWmnbxn
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz1tUptmJR1
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3C9U9B7gB
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ahWSs6pxq
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EOstLVru2
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFi4bimfhtN
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 353Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkIkiABUR6x
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
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