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FIEFDOM FALL
ISSUE #18
Author: Rebel
FIEFDOM FALL
Author: Rebel
ISSUE #18
18. Mark (1 Year Anniversary)
No Plagiarism!WLhzBI4r4aTs75Yjln4gposted on PＥNAＮＡ

[Verse 1]

I wish I could split seconds into as long as I need 

Into as long as it takes 

To find solutions to problems; make decisions and process everything 

And process everything

Before I felt the wreckage searing and searing in me 

Searing, too searing to think 

About solutions to problems; make decisions or process anything 

Or process anything

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[Pre-chorus]

I prayed to live when I could 

But in the moments I was consciously conscious I didn't wish I would 

Adrenaline and I could 

Feel everything I never could before I should 

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[Verse 2]

I wish I could skip minutes that feel like millennia

That feel like took forever 

Writhing with stillness, past limits; my appearance a grimace repertoire 

A grimace repertoire 

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[Pre-chorus]

I prayed to live when I could 

But in the moments I was consciously conscious I didn't wish I would 

Hit ketamine and I could 

Feel everything I never would before I could 

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[Chorus]

Who would ever love me, looking like this?

Who could ever love me, looking so hideous?

Who could ever love me?

Who could ever love me?

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[Verse 3]

I wish I could pick moments to drop back into again 

To drop back into the past 

To change the outcome, feel less numb; I could look up, overcome my constraint

Overcome my constraint 

Because I've been lonesome, my back towards the mirror 

My back towards the bustle 

Can't change the outcome, feel less numb; I can't look up, overcome my constraint 

Overcome my constraint 

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[Pre-chorus]

I prayed to die if I could 

Oh, but if I'm being honestly honest I, I didn't wish I would 

Try every night and I could 

Feel everything I never should before I would 

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[Verse 4]

I wish I could find solace amidst my pure self loathing 

And the sympathy showing 

Without a promise of justice you've inflicted, stuck like this forever 

Stuck like this forever 

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[Pre-chorus]

I prayed to die if I could 

Oh, but if I'm being honestly honest I, I didn't wish I would 

Cry every night, yes, I would

Feel everything I never would before I could 

151Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGf01U4Fhv

[Chorus]

Who would ever love me, looking like this?

Who could ever love me, looking so hideous?

Who could ever love me?

(Kill me now)

Who could ever love me?

Who would ever love me, looking like this?

Who could ever love me, looking, but my parents 

Who could ever love me?

(Kill me now)

Who could ever love me?

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FIEFDOM FALL
Poetry
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Angst
Last updated: Jan 17, 2026
Total word count: 7,419
Total reading time: 34 Minutes
Writer:
Rebel
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