Who am I?330Please respect copyright.PENANAzttyDpuB28
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.330Please respect copyright.PENANAn7fIg1qz0b
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.330Please respect copyright.PENANAGDSJp9c9jh
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.330Please respect copyright.PENANA1JL5cRzlhB
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.330Please respect copyright.PENANAPaAym2aLjQ
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,330Please respect copyright.PENANAAOcWRaqk2S
but I feel like I’m stuck.330Please respect copyright.PENANAqxB1dFnrKD
I don’t know what I want.330Please respect copyright.PENANALM9Ed9VRWq
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...330Please respect copyright.PENANAYo0iGj5fhU
I want to have a dream.330Please respect copyright.PENANAjr8M888bKt
Have a goal.330Please respect copyright.PENANANozWzidtSj
Try to achieve it...330Please respect copyright.PENANA19Bv5eRAia
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.330Please respect copyright.PENANAgmG0s9R7ht
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,330Please respect copyright.PENANADBEuPQ80ZB
I’m alone, trying to dream,330Please respect copyright.PENANAAtHGzZuK4Q
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,330Please respect copyright.PENANAZ0og5N2502
after a long journey,330Please respect copyright.PENANALREe4eOppj
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...330Please respect copyright.PENANAS7KcknUZlu