Who am I?98Please respect copyright.PENANAi4bWB9SqJ5
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.98Please respect copyright.PENANA3K957DiL55
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.98Please respect copyright.PENANABjFlbHYipb
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.98Please respect copyright.PENANAToz6mhUxNm
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.98Please respect copyright.PENANALxyPvhKlTX
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,98Please respect copyright.PENANAIt9UcGTHyS
but I feel like I’m stuck.98Please respect copyright.PENANA9gcRQbQ2rJ
I don’t know what I want.98Please respect copyright.PENANAC7YSEpgPjv
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...98Please respect copyright.PENANAUp4uWaQdaj
I want to have a dream.98Please respect copyright.PENANAa03Fsmp8ae
Have a goal.98Please respect copyright.PENANAL6iXa8JiOD
Try to achieve it...98Please respect copyright.PENANAUcrK1ABFC6
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.98Please respect copyright.PENANABVgIo2KyWV
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,98Please respect copyright.PENANApJSMI2IjwG
I’m alone, trying to dream,98Please respect copyright.PENANAtRZf90di4b
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,98Please respect copyright.PENANAlrOksTz84P
after a long journey,98Please respect copyright.PENANA2ROlp4FDk5
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...98Please respect copyright.PENANA462pdGbDtx